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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Looking Back Through The Year

"If you look back through your year, and you can't find moments when you laughed or cried, then that year has gone waste."

Another December is coming, and like usual, my contemplative mood came all of a sudden.
I remember watching an episode of Ally Mc Beal re-run, regretting all the shits happened to me for the last couple of weeks:

I wasn't as "perky" as said, I have reached my stamina limit. Coughing so hard, that I almost puked my brain out, my dear mommy called me over and over telling me to have some dinner but I didn't want to.

T asked me during my visit to his house last week, "Are you dying? You're coughing so hard." I laughed, and he's the one who got ankle problem.

Contacted OC for almost everyday since we had some plans together, hopefully it will happen. I know girl, I'm dragging you into a bad habit. But heck, we're still young, why not be a little bit reckless? I really need someone to accompany my escapes.

I realize that from now on I must control my temper. My cousin May said that I'm very emotional. Really? Well, after the car banging incident, I know that Batata needs some anger management sessions. Hehehehehe ...

During the year, one of the topics often being discussed was about kids. From my colleagues, and my family. In different terms of course. My colleagues were of course discussing about their innocent kids in early stage of life, while my family, well they'd, of course, be talking about others.

I saw how my uncle was literary crushed by those bastards he called sons (remind me not to have son). Those over spoiled brats who couldn't wait for their parents to die. Fuck you! I hate you! Don't you have hearts? I saw how my dearest mom worried about my uncle and aunt so much. I really wish I can do more for him. I don't like my uncle too, but please, if I hear another person speaks that he is paying his past debts, I'm going to slap him on the face.

On another angle, I begin to see some signs of a marriage cooling off. I was like: Hell, after all these years? What were you thinking? No, they're going to be together, of course. But I'm not blind.

I am patting my own shoulder and say that everything is going to be alright. I have passed that period of "There is an invinsible - daddy - who - loves - without - condition" thingy.

For now, my part is to stay silent, keep myself under the radar. Hey, it was a great year after all!

|The Girl in Town| 3:00 PM #